條碼檢查胸水

事情來得突然，我從台灣回來不到一周，發現條碼的呼吸變得急促且起伏大。0912帶去看獸醫本來還打算沒問題就打狂犬病疫苗，可能一年內就會回台灣。沒想到檢查結果居然是惡性腫瘤，預估剩餘壽命只剩一個月。醫生建議我做安寧治療，類固醇或止痛二選一，讓她用氧氣輔助到她走為止。她一直都非常健康，一年以前出發到日本之前也做過完整的健康檢查。

我是晴天霹靂。

接下來一周我進入到處找獸醫院再次確認的狀態。總共去了三間獸醫院，但每一間去了不只是一次。每一天都沒有好好睡著，半夜會不斷醒來把氧氣面罩拉到她附近，追著她跑。這過程中我至少有一次曾經目睹她吸不到氣的樣子。於是出租的氧氣房(酸素box)也租來了。統合目前四個獸醫的分析，都是惡性腫瘤。是我們要接受這個事實，只是再見來的會如此突然。一下我就開始也要找寵物的葬儀火葬服務。

"Place a Picture here later"

這是診斷出來後的第一個周末，已經打了將近一周的止痛 (有時候吃onsir止痛)。這周五她第一次抽胸水，週日的時候因為前晚有發燒的情況，再去一次時已經沒有發燒。

Now we are using steroid : プレドニン 5mg （オレンジ色）

She's ok now, but she could be leaving us at any moment. We were considering giveing her euthanasia (安楽死) so to avoid her later pain in final phases. It took me a few days to make final decision, and I know we can't use her current condition to estimate her last days. Everyday she's getting weaker and more painful.

I have two pets died in my arm, in their final days and it's quite a sudden. I figured out it's myself can't take the pressure and sorrow anymore so I think about euthanasia. 

The decision will be made in a week. After that if I decided not to take her euthanasia, I will stay with her and bear all the pain & sorrow all by myself. Esp, in another country & alone.